04-03-03 - 6:29 p.m.
someone i thought was a friend betrayed me this week. hurt feeings aside, she ruined my credibility with wine charm guy and jeopardized my position with the hotel. i think he'd find a way a fire me if he hadn't been stupid enough to ply me with merlot and say "shut up and kiss me" at my job interview. in the midst of all this drama is patrick, my touchstone, there to ground me if i let him. yesterday in bed, he said;
i'm here to baby you. what do you want me to be?
single, i told him, and for that one moment, i really think he was.