02-25-03 - 9:29 a.m. i have a sudden, ugly urge to hurt patrick today, to piss him off and push him away, to run from the safety of his magical, mysterious, unconditional love. i want to fuck up my happiness, spoil it, and i have no idea why. if i were my own shrink, i'd point out ways to stop this harmful behavior pattern to myself, and i'd do it for free.
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