09-15-02 - 5:28 p.m.
it's been a week without contact with patrick and aside from the overwhelming urge to quit my job, sell my home and move, with no forwarding address, to a big cosmopolitan city where i can walk to a museum or one of those corner markets with vegetables and flowers spilling out onto the sidewalk, i am trying to decide if i miss him, and if i do, what it is i miss about him. fuck. one would think i could find a better way to pass the time on my only day off this week.