06-24-02 - 5:17 p.m.
life lesson;
you are on the ragged edge of nothing and beyond rational thinking and your best friend and lover is just a phone call away and for the first or maybe second time in your dysfuntional, fucked-up life you take a gigantic leap of faith and dial his number. when he answers, you tell him how irrational you feel and how you're poised and ready to ruin something wonderful, because you can't deal with what you're feeling and you're terrified the person you value most in the world will ridicule or laugh or hate or bail on you for what you know in your heart is simply human. and after patiently listening to your wine-enforced, frightened, blurted, weepy diatribe, he says simply;
it's okay. i'm here and i love you.