10-09-02 - 7:27 a.m.
a surprise visit from heasley, up from santa babs and playing hookey from work. she is evolving, before my very eyes, into a polished, self-assured woman. life in a trendy, cosmopolitan beach city becomes her. an enduring relationship with a man who respects her doesn't hurt either. unfortunately, she caught me in a less than vivacious mood, and felt the need to somehow fix my life. by suggesting that i'm not living up to my potential, she suddenly reminded me of my dad- her grandfather.
after she left, i sat in the bathtub and cried until i remembered, thanks to berries, the real reason behind my sleep-walk of monotony.
49 is an awkward age.