05-07-02 - 6:06 p.m. after watching two terrific cry-n-die movies in one week; life as a house and my first mister, i suddenly feel terribly... mortal. this alarmed patrick, who, as a true codger, often feels his days are numbered. i don't want anything left unsaid, i told him. if something happens to me, i want you to know exactly how much you mean to me. in order to enforce this idea, i gave him an assignment. by the end of the day, i said, i want to exchange thoughts we've had, but never expressed to each other. patrick loves a challenge. at noon, when he called, i was still pondering what profoundity might sweep him off his fucking size nine feet. okay, he said, i pictured myself standing over your coffin... (this isn't exactly what i meant, but what the hell.) how do i look? i asked. gorgeous. and you lean down...? i lean down, weeping... and you whisper...? and i whisper, "tomato soup is the only thing that settles my stomach when it's upset."
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